When does one actually step into the light?
I mean, its not like I hadn’t already realised that becoming a Christian was a process and especially in Western Europe where most people are now growing up in secularism. Even my own ‘conversion’ feels less like an experience than a growing into – and that is in the Northern Irish Evangelical context where sinner’s prayers are flung left right and centre.
So for example, a guy starts coming along to bible study – he buys a bible and excitedly shares that every time he picks it up he learns something new. He explains how he’s started praying every night before going to sleep. During the group he prays out loud to thank God for drawing him closer to knowing Him and asks Him to help in the path.
Alongside this, he talks about not really believing in eternal life. Or he claims to have bought a book about angels as well as having bought a bible.
I guess ultimately I believe that only God really knows whether there’s a specific moment in someone’s life where they enter ‘the light’. But also that (she typed, thinking ‘out loud’), perhaps starting to walk in the light is less a lightswitch (as the Calvinists might claim?) and more a chosen direction. So, if I turn away from my own way and start walking towards God, then I’m walking in the direction of the Light and the path is therefore lit, whereas before I was walking away from the light and was therefore in darkness, you know?
So this friend of mine seems to be walking in the direction of the Light and that’s exciting. He could change his mind at some point and dander off the other way, as could I.